We believe that there is always a right time for everything. I just don't know why I am so excited to have a baby at this early stage of our marriage. Maybe because I want my husband and I to be together. Having our baby will eventually mean that I'm gonna go with him in Baguio. Because at this point in time, it seems to be so impossible for me to be staying with him for good.
Lately I've been so sensitive with this issue. I just feel so bad every time we talk about my relocation in his place. All I wanted is to be with him. We've been away from each other since then and it has always been what I'm looking forward to--- living with him. I believe that having been married means living together under one roof. I'm trying to understand situations, but there comes a time that my mind becomes so close to being understanding.
Three weeks ago, I was so excited to test if I'm pregnant. Even if I'm not delayed, I still did the test. I woke up at around 3am and saw the pregnancy kit. I couldn't help myself but to use it, and sadly, it was negative. Then just last Monday, I went to see an OB-Gyne. I am already delayed for like 10days so I went to do the test again, and it's still negative. I don't understand. The doctor said that it's either my menstruation is so delayed or the conception of the baby is late.
Oh well, whatever it is, I still hope I'm gonna have our baby soon, as in soon.
For now, I'm just gonna take care of my health and since I'm still considered as suspect for pregnancy, I'm gonna act like I'm one :)
But still, it isn't a reason for me to be relocated with my husband :(
