An Early Christmas Blessing

"The best surprises are those that come without even a single hint."

Nov. 20, 2010 - That was the morning that marked another milestone in our married life. Weeks before that day, I was feeling a bit uneasy at work, in my everyday life. I always felt nauseaous that I almost threw up everything that I ate. I then realized that I was a bit sensitive when it comes to smell. I often noticed how my seatmate in the jeepney smelled or even got irritated with the smoke coming from cigarettes.

From the whole week before Nov.20, I even climbed stairs, lifted heavy furnitures from third to ground floor, and I even joined a 3KM fun run. I never thought that I am pregnant not until people around me were noticing the symptoms that I kept telling them. So they convinced me to have pregnancy test.

By Nov.20 husband and I were supposed to attend a mass but I had a terrible stomach pain so he went alone and I asked him to purchase a pregnancy kit. I kept waiting for him even if I was in a hurry to urinate because the first drop of urine should be used for the test. So when husband arrived, I rushed to the comfort room and did the test. Deep inside me is an expectation that it will turn out positive, and lucky as we are, it really resulted to POSITIVE. I didn't know how to react and how to tell husband. Outside Mark was also nervous how it will turn out, so when I went out the CR, I just nodded and uttered, "POSITIVE".

We didn't know how to tell our families. My husband was also speechless not like the usual scenes that I saw in Tagalog movies that when a man discovers he's gonna be a father, he'll jump for joy and will shout to the neighborhood that he's already a dad. Mark was the other way around. He was quiet. Little did I know that he was already calling his mom and his sister. I was shocked and in disbelief at first. I was afraid to broadcast it at once because it may be false alarm, the kit may just be not real. Then I learned that Mark only bought it for 50pesos so I asked him to buy a more expensive one to confirm that it's really positive. But afterwards, the symptoms that I experienced for the past week confirmed that I really am pregnant.

So we couldn't wait to broadcast it. Mark was even the one to instruct me to take a picture and post it in Facebook. He even had the consciousness to put powder on his face, and me, I was still in awe.

It was five days ago since we first knew that I am pregnant and for that five days, it was totally a roller coaster experience. I was in pain for the past 4 days and it was only today that I felt good. I was advised to have a bedrest, and eventually, I even filed resignation. I couldn't afford to have a work but risk the safety of my baby.

So far, I don't have specific cravings. I just crave for everything that I see. My sensitivity to smell becomes stronger. I hate the smell of any cooking procedures especially instant pancit canton, sauteed product, and bellpepper. My emotions and mood swings are more recognizable these days. When I cry, I really cry hard that it's so hard for me to stop. When I'm happy, I'm totally happy. I feel more special these days because everyone's taking care of me, concerned about me, and exerting effort to give my cravings. This is one of the advantages of being pregnant. When my tummy aches, I couldn't stop from crying but I just think that God allows me to feel that way for me to be reminded that there is a life inside my system.

Truly this is such an early Christmas blessing and it comes to a real surprise. God is so good.


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